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hihheknotogo””sure.”his voiiledback.”ae” hopesatonherbedrooloor.abooklayopenbesideher,butshewas studyingheradeher,hadifferent onth.guineverep littleball,kingpreciousfewsounds. radli,sheroseandoutiogfeet tofiher.heorthekit, othersbedrooshefoundhin thestudio. hesfolded.hewas deepiration,studyingvasesthathehadlineduponthe oppositesideoftheroo shestoodquietlybythedoor,tellingherselfthatybesheshould leaveandebacklater.butshealk. ”hi,sie,”hesaidandlookedatherfeet.”he boots ””inrooareyoudoing”sheasked. ”lookingatyourthersstuff.shesgood.” ”areyoureallygoingtofinishherpictures””idontknowas justathought.otherbeangrye ifidid”hopedidntthinkso.shehadnteverheardrachelsay anythingbadaboutjack.saoldhershejustlistening,but shewas. ”daddy””,sorrohink ysgoingtosjusttakinglohanihad hopeditwould.” ”uch.theyreing,too.theyre pleasedthatshesinghatifrachel gettihebadstuffsheodoh hercat.sheraisedherarsothatsheuldrubherfa guineveresfur.itething right. ”guineveresgettinge anyre.iclap,andshedoesuherhead.shesgoingto diesoon,daddy.”hepushedathe,and rubbedguineverebetheears.”issheinpain””no.shed ohroathurt.shehadtoforce the.”daddy,llidohoughtfora nute.”youllbesad.youllgrieveforher.”that hopeant.”ean,itjust... throlikeshehibones.”helookedcross.”you shouldntbeplish anything.thiselikeshesreadytodie.”but hopefelttheurgencyofit.”sheis.ikno,daddy.ifeel it.” ”yourejustscared.” ”no,”sheinsisted.”itshappening. soigoingtodo”hefrourossnowas unsure.”doyoutodo””itoburyher.”he sinute.sheuld seethathedidntknoantha.hedidnt thinktheheydid. ”okay,”hesaid,surprisingher.”youburyher.therestbea petceterysohopedid cetery.shedidnttohavetogodrivingtoseeguinevere.she edtheearby,edguioknohatshewasnearby. ”orheforest,”jacksaid,glangoutthe window. ”souch,hope thought,nodding. ”done,”hesaidandpulledherclose. shedidntsayanythingforanutebecauseherthroathurtagain. thistiitwaswrong.hedid uand. thatanthecared. ”daddy”shehear.”youleaveus alone, annoyedhinough,heuldaand youhavetogobaitytoeoostay here.” ”i.” ”doyouprose””iprose.”shesighed. evely,allestbitofbreath,shesaid,”ilove you.”hedidntahischeekagainstthetopofher head,andinthatinstant,thektuedbadshebelieved. ovedfrohespot herthenightbefore.frightened,sheleanedclose, closeenoughsothatthecath.”guin”she heheekhafiip.the sllestventagainstherfinger,sheletoutabreath. shedrapedanarightlyarouandlayclose,thinking,i loveyou,guinevere,iloveyou,ahewhisperofananswering purr.thenitstopped.forseveralnutes,hopedidntve. ”guin ”sherokedthecatsheadandedforapurr, strokedagain,edagain.herehing,sheburiedher headinguineveresolingfuraocry. ”hope”jaalled,ingtothedoor.”areyouup”gulping sobsbubbledupfroheyonly greloser,hopingshewaswrong,hoping sheter.sheuldjeelit,agiant etiness,abighole,ahugealoneness. ”sie”hetouchedherhead.”hope,isit”hetouchedthe cat,lefthishandthereanute,andjusthinkingthat shedidntknosheodobecauseeverythingsheloved alsaroundherandguinevereboth,and leanedoverclose. hedidntsayanything,justsatthereshelteringtheandwhen santhaaskinghey goingtoday.guineverejustdied.” ”iorry,hope,”santhasaid,softlynoloseby. ”oldher.”totakethebus today ”hopedidnthearanansartedgagain,because theantha theonesheedjustthen.theonesheedwasholding hertight. ifaoldjackthataandhisfirbr> tingfireoplankstobuilda tinyffinforacat,hetted.butitseed likethebestthingtodo. hopesatonthegroundnearby.guineverehewashwo babyafghanthatrarochetedandthathopehadslepthfor thefirsteightyearsofherlife.tattersandall,itwasherprized possession.onceshe,shestoppedg.she heldherbuhoughitweregold. jarto nail. allffinwasfinished,hedugagr ...