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【】ntly.blissitonhislifeheuldshohabit,traininganddiscretionooingrained. astheeveningoreandreuninhibited,theliquneandandatotalabsesofthegillydistri. paddyalyatdnightbobandjaingtotheuestheyhadanopportunitytorelaxandenjoyeaberedseeibehardontheparentsefalies,neverabletosnat,ightexinds.paddyostliterallyshone,andesquattersanychyoungerensosoughtafter. hoontstoobservetheeagreatdealreanitedandflabbergastedthesseshopeton,arabydau,evenpoorholysspugh,andsiniredandntedupon.nooneuldsaytheirdaughterhadnothadanopportunitytodaherdebricassart. ofurse,haditnotbeenaprivatepartyheuldnothavedeavetoanreallyenjoyhielfforonce. atthreeoaryeoodrea.father,eupthestairs,please”onshedidnottutothejesti.itsdoorhadbeenlocked;she,thenprecededhinside. ”itary,”hesaid. ”last.” ”dontsaythat,dear.” ”tiredofliving,ralph,andioingtostop.”herhardeyeseforoverseventyyearsivedoing,hesverychstaken.illdiee,andnosuicide,either.itsourtired,andiple.” heate,thelaos,hielf.therooofpriorediaboliselfonkeepinguponsignor,andasaposofyouthandtheper.hehadrongenoughtoetthetest.butheakethatstakeagain.never,never... hevedrestlessly,sighed;eagain.tihefaing.”doyoureersaying,ralph,thatidbeatyou,thatidhoistyouhyouroard” thedryoldvoiappedhiutofthereveriehisiled. ”dearry,ineverfetanythingyousay.ialice,yourperception...” ”ifidbeenyoungeridhavegotyouinadifferentylifeouttheetoandofferedtobuysoulfortheyselftobelieveingodorthedevil,youknootheeffecttheyexist.haveyou” ”no.butbeliefdoesonproofofexistence,ry.itrestsonfaith,andfaithisthetouhurch.houtfaith,thereisnothing.” ”averyepheralte.” ”perhaps.faithsboinanoraan,ithink.foritsanstantstruggle,iadtthat,butillnevergiveup.” ”iodestroyyou.” hisblueeyeslaughed,greyedinthelight.”oh,dearryiknohat.” ”butdoyouknohy” aterrifyingtendeess,exsorry.” ”besidesyourther,hoanyenhavelovedyou””didtherlove,ie,anyendo.naoughttohavebeenhippolytos.” ”ohhhhhhthattellsalot” ”astootheren,ithinkonlyggie...butshesalittlegirl.itsprobablynotanexaggerationtosayhundredsofenhavee,butlovedidoubtitverych.” ”ihavelovedyou,”shesaidpathetically. ”no,youhavent.ihegoadofyouroldage,thatsall.eirendyouofyouotdo,becauseofage.” ”youreuyyearsautotiething.ihisstupidbodyitillyoungistillfeel,istill,istillkiybody.oldageisthebitterestvengeanceefulgodinflictsuponus.indsaskinherlosedhereye ...